Sunday, January 31, 2010
Counting Blessings instead of Chores
I did an amazing, even by my standards, 27 pages today. Oddly, I did the same number last Sunday, but in two writing sessions instead of the one massive one I did today. Apparently, I write very productively on Sundays. Early in the book, any book, I have days when 4 to 8 pages is a very good day. I tend to pick up speed the closer I get to the end of a book. It’s just a natural rhythm that I’ve always done, but some books will have days of twenty plus pages and some books if I do… Read More
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Saturday, January 30, 2010
Tempted
One of the things I like best about fiction is being able to rewrite. It allows you to fix all your mistakes with a clear-eyed 20/20 vision that real life rarely gives you. But just because you can fix the “mistakes” does that mean you should? We had deaths of characters early in “Bullet”. I cried, I got depressed, I put it out on the Internet, and let all that emotion spread. Not sure if I’ll do that again, by the by, but once I did it there was no taking it back. So since I have already shared, I’ll… Read More
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Friday, January 29, 2010
The Funeral was Yesterday
We had a funeral yesterday. Great-Grandma Helen was nearly a hundred so her death was not unexpected, but in the end that doesn’t take away the grief, it only changes it. She had been sick for a very long time, and she rarely remembered present day or knew exactly what was happening around her. So that in many ways she was gone long before her body knew to leave. I have had grief both after long illness and age, and the sudden, shock of young, healthy people dieing. If I had to choose, I will take the grief of the… Read More
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Monday, January 25, 2010
Crystals
I’ve heard from a lot of you that shared similar, or different, early life traumas. First, thanks for sharing, and glad my blogs have helped you deal with some of your own issues, even if its just to know that you’re not the only one. I thought I’d share with you some of the pitfalls that I’ve found in working my own issues, and meeting others that are working theirs. One of the biggest traps for those of us with serious early abuse whether it be emotional, verbal, physical, or sexual, or any combination thereof, is getting caught in the… Read More
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Friday, January 22, 2010
Monsters
I’ve tried to pretend my mood was better than it truly was today. Sometimes it works to act as if. Act as if you’re happy. Act as if you’re not overwhelmed. Act as if you’re more confident than you are. I’ve found that often if I act ‘as if’ that I feel braver, happier, and it becomes true with positive energy put into it. But today, it just hasn’t worked.
I’ve sat at the computer and got no pages. It’s an Edward scene and that usually writes very fast, and is a lot of fun, but today the page sits… Read More
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Thursday, January 21, 2010
Emotional Distance and a Spoiler
Spoiler Alert: Read with caution
In an effort to try and get me out of the deep, blue funk that I’ve been in, I tried to wear something yesterday that I have never worn to work as a writer. I wore an elegant, black, designer skirt, thigh highs, a simple black sweater, that was suddenly made feminine and pretty by being paired with the skirt, rather than jeans. Instead of my usual boots that work more for club wear, I wore a knee high pair that were more girl. The outfit looked like someone else. It felt different. I even… Read More
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Tuesday, January 19, 2010
To be left in Suspense, or Not? You Decide.
Just wanted to let everyone know that I slept well last night. No bad dreams, in fact, no dreams at all that I remember. After last night’s trauma that suited me just fine. I woke up refreshed and feeling much better, though since all my 11 pages were Anita holding her sweetie’s hand in the hospital it was still traumatic, or at least hard.
Here’s a question, guys. I got very emotional writing the scene where we had someone dies in the book and I had to go to some hard places to find the emotion to write the scene,… Read More
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